Saraba means Farewell

All my life I have been searching.

Since I gained a consciousness, I have been looking for my place in life. My reason for existence. I left my home town 7 years ago, hoping that I will find my place here. I almost succeeded, however it still eludes me not because of lack of trying. And now, I'm back to square one. Once again leaving in search of my raison d'etre.

My new search begins when I leave this Sunday. This time, I sincerely hope that I will find what I have been searching for. To another country I flee, chasing after my raison d'etre. But what happens if I fail again? To keep searching. This is the purpose of life I believe. Yet, many never find their reason for existence. Nevertheless, they continue to live. Are they happy?

What happens when you lose your raison d'etre? If you lose it, there is no reason to continue. So you seek a means to an end. A path I will inevitably take.

I swear never to return to this place that forsakes me. I leave all the people I have touched behind. Never to see their faces again. For they have given me nothing. I leave bearing the burdens and pains I began with and have gained on this journey. I leave this fallacy behind.

Saraba.

Surprise!!

A few things came up after my last post, thats why I'm still here.

So, Q has taken over running the site. But I will still put in a word here and there. There won't be many updates fast. But be patient.

Tying loose ends is taking longer than expected. Especially selling some stuff I won't need anymore. Until then, I'm stuck here. Luckily I can still change the date on my plane ticket. A lot of other things as well, i.e. bank, car, house, etc. I estimate to be delayed about two weeks. But hopefully I can settle things here earlier than that.

I'm looking forward to leaving, but at the same time I don't want to. Still, time for a change of pace I guess. There isn't anything holding me back from leaving anyway. 'She' is not a strong enough reason, keeping in mind "Regret". This place is boring, not much to do. The city pretty much shuts down after 10pm. Not counting bars, clubs and restaurants.

A few general issues.
Paris Hilton: To quote Nelson from The Simpsons - "Ha ha".
Singapore to host first night time F1 GP: Looking forward to it.
Spanish F1 GP this weekend: Go Massa!
Korean Music Festival: Q says it was "the bomb".
Grandmother injured herself: Again.
Mother's Day tomorrow: Show your appreciation.

Condolences to a friend whose aunt passed away. And now the grandfather is sick. I hope things go well. A personal message: "Hang in there. C'est la Vie. It will be ok."

Saranghandagu, Mabel

And with that, Fin.