Regret

Mabel,

It has been a long time now. Waiting, just waiting for you. I wish I could have told you earlier, but you always seem so preoccupied. You say you are happy now. Or maybe its because I couldn't find the courage to tell you.

I regret not telling you sooner. I regret that there could have been something between us, but through my own fault, there is nothing. It is better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all. I realise now, it is also better to have told you, than not at all.

To tell you how I feel is not the easiest thing for me to do. How do I tell you? When I don't know how you will react. I don't want to ruin what little relationship we have. But then, I think to myself, there isn't really one between us. We are not close, we do not spend time together, we barely speak to each other. What have I to lose?

Yet I find myself unable to do it. Can we really have a relationship when we seem to be worlds apart? I don't blame you. How could you have known when we rarely see each other.

Is it too late? Maybe. But perhaps, I might somehow find the courage to tell you.

Aishiteru (I love you)

K